I Was Born Sick... But I Love It!

Original Artwork by Xavier's World

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I was born “sick”

I heard them say it

Everyday

Over and over again

Until it was implanted into my head

They said that my thoughts were wrong

That I was going against the will of god,

committing the ultimate sin

I was born “sick”

I heard them say it

Time after time again

Told to be a man,

To buck up,

To stop acting like a little girl, a wus, a faggot

Oh how I hate those words

But since I was a kid and didn’t know any better,

I did as they said,

I tried to conform myself into a different person

Changing little things

The way I walked,

The way I talked,

Then finally, the way I acted altogether

But I found it difficult

I felt like I was suppressing myself

And because of that I fell into a depression

My mood changed,

My feelings,

And even my actions

To my family was a becoming a bad kid

Because I was acting out

Neither of us knowing what was the cause

That was, until, the day

The day when I finally just woke up

I woke up to the bear, naked, painful truth

A truth that at first I didn’t want to hear

Because I was afraid

Afraid of what people would think

Afraid of what my family would think

Afraid of losing the people I cared about most

And

Afraid that I would never be the same

The truth was….

I was GAY

I was born “sick”

I heard them say it

Day, after day

Week, after week

Year, after miserable year

I was born “sick”

I heard them say it

But guess what

It gets better

A cliché, I know

But the truth

I might have been born “sick”

But I LOVE it

And there is nothing I would change

~Xavier’s World